Happy Monday! What better way to start the week than to consciously decide it’s going to be a good one? I have so many incredible things to be grateful for today (and every day) but I’ve been sitting with something in particular that I want to share in this post. I’m feeling especially thankful for the struggle and pain I’ve been going through the past year or so. Especially the past 6 months, I’ve faced a lot of demons and hardships that have seemed to knock me down over and over again. I’ve battled extreme depression and anxiety, personal heartbreak, and an overwhelming amount of grief within some family-related situations. This has been by far the most difficult time in my life and there were some days when I just didn’t know how I would get through.
The past month or so has been an uphill climb, but I’m starting to see the peaks of my life once again. I am starting to feel lighter, more myself. I’ve been laughing more, loving more, and enjoying each day a little more. I’ve been connecting with people more authentically and honestly once again, and I can feel myself break down some of the walls I built for myself. Lately, life has been better – a lot better. And I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I’m now processing and moving forward from some situations, but I also think it’s because I’ve made a conscious effort and decision that my life will be good. That there’s no if’s, and’s, or but’s about it… My life is going to be full of celebration and joy.
People will knock you down. Life will punch you in the gut more than once. What matters is that you get back in the ring, a little stronger, a little kinder, a little wiser than you were before. I find that a lot of the people I admire most in my life are people that have gone through some of the toughest pain, and I think that’s because experiencing deep struggle within oneself often teaches great compassion towards others.
In the moment, I hated the pain. I resented it. I was so incredibly frustrated with how much I was struggling that I couldn’t see yet see the upside to the experience. Now that my head and heart are both a little clearer, I can see the incredible lessons I’ve learned in not only the way I treat myself, but the way I treat others. The way I treat my life – as a gift.
Today I’m meditating on this idea – the immense blessing that pain can be. The incredible Truth that can be found by hitting rock bottom, and then using that as the foundation in which to rebuild your life. Today I’m celebrating the beauty of pain.